I've been doing a lot of reading lately. Not just leisure reading, but reading as more of self improvement. I've been devouring the book by Joel Osteen "Becoming a Better You". Of course this book is religious based, but honestly the message in the book is inspiring. You should check it out and see what I mean.
I've also been doing some other reading. I've been following an old friend's search for his birthmother through emails, facebook, and his blog. His search started a while ago, fizzled out , and began again in earnest a few days ago. I can not begin to express to you the emotions that I felt throughout his journey! It is like reliving finding my own birthmother and father. He is the one person who is me . In that I mean, I have not had another adoptee to share all I've been through before. We are both fortunate in that our spouses are supportive and encouraging. But to be able to share the same fears, anxieties and then joys with another in the same situation is such an emotional feeling!
I had been hoping and praying since last year that his first futile search would not make him give up hope. As an adoptee, it is your right to decide when the time is right for you. I think he just needed to find the right time in his head and his heart. When you get the correct mindset all good things will happen. He found her quickly and now they communicate all the time. I am so happy for him my heart is about to burst. I know the journey he is on and I'm excited for the both of them. What he doesn't yet know is that there are many more roads ahead of him with so many more pots of gold waiting. Once he speaks to extended family and finally his siblings his life will surely be as interesting as mine!
In my old friend's elation it transports me back to 1997 and searching for my mother. There was no internet for me (at least I don't think I had internet??) I paid a popular search company to find her address for me. I wrote her a heart wrenching letter, splilling my heart out to her. I prayed she would call me. I waited. I waited. I waited even more. No response. No phone call. I was absolutely devestated.
I remember one Saturday when my husband was working I went to bed. I literally went into my bed and laid there with Nicholas (he was just a few months old), Tony 3, and Tommy 7 laying with me watching TV. I laid there for a long time until my husband called and made me feel better about the situation. He said perhaps she hadn't even received the letter and not to be so pessimistic. Soon after believing that Tony could be right there was a crack in the case. A month later I met my mother who was living in New Jersey at the time. My letter was originally sent to an address in Maine that was really outdated. She never received it.
I thought of this story when my friend said he did not get a response to his message sent to her via facebook messages. I urged him to send an email to her true email address. Thank God he did, as she hadn't seen the first one. I felt all along his reunion would go well, maybe because my two had. I just wanted for him what I had for myself and now he has it!
I can't wait until after they meet. We've talked of going out with our spouses and sharing more stories of new families. I can't wait to get to know his wife, and for him to get to know Tony. If it weren't for the two of them being so supportive who knows if we would have ever gone through with our searches.
I love writing my blog. I truly enjoy the documentating of all that comes out of my learning about my family. With his new blog , now I am an adopton blog reader too!
I've also been doing some other reading. I've been following an old friend's search for his birthmother through emails, facebook, and his blog. His search started a while ago, fizzled out , and began again in earnest a few days ago. I can not begin to express to you the emotions that I felt throughout his journey! It is like reliving finding my own birthmother and father. He is the one person who is me . In that I mean, I have not had another adoptee to share all I've been through before. We are both fortunate in that our spouses are supportive and encouraging. But to be able to share the same fears, anxieties and then joys with another in the same situation is such an emotional feeling!
I had been hoping and praying since last year that his first futile search would not make him give up hope. As an adoptee, it is your right to decide when the time is right for you. I think he just needed to find the right time in his head and his heart. When you get the correct mindset all good things will happen. He found her quickly and now they communicate all the time. I am so happy for him my heart is about to burst. I know the journey he is on and I'm excited for the both of them. What he doesn't yet know is that there are many more roads ahead of him with so many more pots of gold waiting. Once he speaks to extended family and finally his siblings his life will surely be as interesting as mine!
In my old friend's elation it transports me back to 1997 and searching for my mother. There was no internet for me (at least I don't think I had internet??) I paid a popular search company to find her address for me. I wrote her a heart wrenching letter, splilling my heart out to her. I prayed she would call me. I waited. I waited. I waited even more. No response. No phone call. I was absolutely devestated.
I remember one Saturday when my husband was working I went to bed. I literally went into my bed and laid there with Nicholas (he was just a few months old), Tony 3, and Tommy 7 laying with me watching TV. I laid there for a long time until my husband called and made me feel better about the situation. He said perhaps she hadn't even received the letter and not to be so pessimistic. Soon after believing that Tony could be right there was a crack in the case. A month later I met my mother who was living in New Jersey at the time. My letter was originally sent to an address in Maine that was really outdated. She never received it.
I thought of this story when my friend said he did not get a response to his message sent to her via facebook messages. I urged him to send an email to her true email address. Thank God he did, as she hadn't seen the first one. I felt all along his reunion would go well, maybe because my two had. I just wanted for him what I had for myself and now he has it!
I can't wait until after they meet. We've talked of going out with our spouses and sharing more stories of new families. I can't wait to get to know his wife, and for him to get to know Tony. If it weren't for the two of them being so supportive who knows if we would have ever gone through with our searches.
I love writing my blog. I truly enjoy the documentating of all that comes out of my learning about my family. With his new blog , now I am an adopton blog reader too!
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